好長o既夢啊~~~

    今日10點幾個陣比 Tommy 哥哥 個電話叫醒左﹐記得個陣我係發緊夢架。重以為已經係5點幾﹐訓過頭唔知醒起身去返工。原來唔係﹐Tommy 哥哥想穩我替佢蜓日晚工。對唔住啊﹐我有 Assignment 要做同埋我真係唔係好想再連續返 3 日工﹐好累架。對唔住啊對唔住啊 >.< !!!!! 之後就繼續返左去訓囉﹐到1點幾個陣就比 Richard 個電話叫醒﹐咁依個係我叫o既﹐因為我想起身做野。但係依架睇下個鍾﹐我又無晒 mood 去做野﹐又無胃口食野。 最重要o既係我唔記得我發左個咩夢﹐因為當我比 Tommy 哥哥叫醒之後我係想再起身個陣寫返出黎架。而架唔記得左點算? 等我諗下先﹐可能一陣間可以記返起。  記唔起啊…wuu wuu wuu~ 算數。 都係去食杯麵﹐如果唔係 Richard 一陣間又會話我唔食野架喇。 (走去煲水整麵)

 

    Arthur﹐你自己都要 take thing easy ah。 你知如果你想穩人傾下﹐你可以穩我架。我成日都上網架啦﹐好容易穩到﹐再唔係咪打我手機囉 kk??? (一住囉打字一住路食麵~ kakaka) 我想好似中學個陣咁close ah kk?? Take care

 

    Kelly ah~~ 唔好再為依o的野黎愁啦。你重有我地依班朋友嘛﹐一定會"產"你窩唔洗擔心。我知 I haven’t be a true friend so far﹐因為你有事個陣我都唔可以係你身邊陪你。對唔住啊  >.<。 但係我真係當你係好朋友架﹐所以呢。。。唔好再為個o的野而煩啦。 Cheer up Kelly, you are a wonderful and in fact a pretty gal u know? Be more confident in urself lah, 你想o既無話唔得架係唔係? Arthur 都會認同我o既講法架!!! No matter what, still got Arthur and me to back u up..not to mention u still got Irene to share ur 心事嘛﹐咁近。

 

    Jing Jing, 父母恩我地真係一輩子都還唔晒。當我地意識到自己變得大個喇﹐就會察覺到父母的年紀已經開始大了﹐無意間你可能發現父母的髮間有白色的東西在閃動。父母一生忙碌﹐為的不就是孩子可以有三餐溫飽﹐有一個健康o既環境長大。到了孩子長大了﹐又會擔心在外他們會食得飽嗎? 著得暖嗎? 可能小時候﹐父母會對我地嚴厲教管﹐其實就係想我地大個之後可以自己照顧自己﹐穩到一份安穩o既工作之嘛。 又或者在他們的小時候不能達到的事情就會加固在我們身上﹐希望我們會達到。父母與孩子之間有太多的或者和如果﹐我們可以做到的就是照顧好自己和表現出自己一個人獨立已經無問題喇 (雖然這兩點我都沒做到)。 Jing Jing, 我看到你已經可以做到喇。唔好傷心喇﹐打個電話好容易之嘛﹐同埋依架由中國黎澳洲唔係好難架﹐我上次表姐黎個時講o既。 AND 你可以返去探佢地之嘛係唔係? 無想象中咁悲架!!!! 笑一笑﹐世界多美妙啊!! 你父母都係想見到你笑個樣姐﹐同埋啊﹐最重要o既就係﹐你父母今次o既澳洲之旅你地三個都好開心咁過啊。一家人最緊要係開心啊嘛係無? KAKAKA~~ 講左一大籠野添﹐開心啦開心啦~~~~

 

    怪獸哥哥你幾時返呢? 快o的返黎同怪獸妹妹聊下天啦~~~ (=.=)zzZZ

我不再孤單 ^^

 

『開心的時候，有人分享，才有意思。

不開心的時候，有人安慰，我們才有勇氣去面對。

把開心和不開心都留給自己的人，理智，但孤獨。』

    我想﹐我不會再孤獨了。 因為我有很錫我的朋友﹐對我呵護有加的男朋友和一個很溫暖的避風塘-我家。如果傷心了﹐就帶傷回避風塘啊﹐他們都會張開雙手給我一個擁抱。無聊了﹐就上上網跟朋友講講話﹐玩玩 web cam 啊﹐時間就會過得好快。昨天﹐我跟一個小學同學第一次玩 web cam﹐真的很開心。 我們認識了都有11年了﹐他比我早一年移民去三番市。剛開始的時候我們都有書信來往﹐但是在墨爾本時間久了﹐就開始懶惰起來﹐信都不多寫。直到他有了e-mail﹐我們才偶然發發e-mail給對方。到來今年年頭﹐他說他有msn 才可以這樣講講話﹐但因為大學真的很忙所以都不大聊天。到了昨天﹐心血來潮就 msg 他呀。講了講了﹐就開了 web cam。可以見到他了!! 都不知道有多年沒見到他樣子﹐我對他的記憶只停留在他小學 4年級那時。他變了﹐那應該是當然的是吧? 我問他有多高﹐我真的 @_@。他有180cm﹐在小學的時候我已經記得他很高﹐想不到他他他。。。為何我不能長高呢? 不公平啊!!! Anyway﹐我真的好高興可以跟他聊天唷。在 web cam 的時候﹐我們倆都變得小孩子多了﹐做鬼臉什麼的。好懷念啊。 今天﹐起床以後 (都過來 2pm)。他msg 我說他的 mic 已經 fix 好了﹐keke, 那﹐我們又web cam 起來加 conversation chat 囉。我都不記得他的聲音是甚樣了﹐覺得他變得近好多。我們又玩了兩個小時多﹐因為他那邊已經是12am 啦﹐他要去睡因為明天有課。他說會帶 web cam 到大學去給我看看他的 lecture hall 是甚麼樣的﹐excite ah~~ 還有﹐Jing Jing 也跟我聊天啊。謝謝她給我的開解和鼓勵﹐我真的覺得好多了。好高興有她一位朋友﹐她給的意見真的很管用。還有﹐Arthur 和 Kelly 都很關心我﹐在我不開心的時候都跟我聊天﹐逗我開心。 我真的很幸運!! 好開心啊﹐多謝你們啊!!!! 如果我繼續想埋一邊就太對唔住大街家啦﹐同埋我都唔想男朋友仔仔成日都為左我o既唔開心架嘛~~ kekeke~~ 我要做一個幸福的小女孩~~~kakaka ^^v

Sorry everyone..

   It’s finally over? I don’t have the energy to carry on like this any longer, I’ve got to stop. Like, who am I to judge? Everything is understandable but why won’t I just go accept it? I understand why everything happen, I do understand. Hey, understand doesn’t mean have to accept rite? That’s my thought in the past nearly a year, I can put myself in your shoe and feel wat u feel, think what you think. That doesn’t mean that I’m going to stop the way I am, well, not anymore. I won’t be a bitch anymore, so tiring being a bitch all the time. I think its time to let someone to take over my bitchy job, I’ll give that a smile. I know that my attitude to deal with things is very childish and stubborn. Now, I’ll just put a smile on my face and move on. I chat to my good god bro a couple of days ago, I asked him why am I always unhappy, he replied me with this " 唔同人有唔同性格麻, 唔洗成日都一定要開開心心先係人, 呢個係你charater=.= u don’t have to understand it, just live with it". I know that he is rite but if I continue living the way I am now, I don’t think I’ll have many more years to live. Is he true that this is my chraracter? Am I always being a sorrow bitch all the time? I remembered that I was cheery like ages ago, only school work will get me down. I don’t wanna think about that any more. I just wanna apologize the way I treated everyone in the past, I’m truely honestly sorry. That’s all I want to say…sorry pplz.

Change everything…

    Felt like changing the background theme, I wanted to change it a week ago, but didn’t find one that I liked. I must have missed this one last time I check, since…I like this one now. Feel more cheery and alive…which is what I want now. I wanna be cheery and alive, but atm, I’m not living that way. I WAS a cheery person up till I don’t know when. I wanna go back to high school, where everything is warm and friendly. And back to the time I experience nothing, only need to concentrate on school work and that’s it. Life was simple and clear. Now? Its still simple, but not clear any more…too foggy. I know that I always made things more complicated than it is, but I can’t stop my head from turning. I always got blind by the bad point/disadvantage, I’ll never let my self see the good side of things. That’s one big black piggy for me. SIGH* I wanted to change everything, change the way I look, change the way I deal with things, change the way I act. I guess…the only easy thing I can do is to change the way I look, just draw a big cross on my face will do. I want to have a clear idea of what I want in life and what I should be expecting. I don’t wanna expect something that is out of my reach or control any more. I’m aggressive~ very aggressive..should I give myself a slap on the face to clear myself up? Will that work? If it will, I’ll do it for sure. Sigh…don’t wanna type anymore…might update abit on my emotion later. Just wanna get out of the house…..wanna wanna wanna wanna….sigh….

Melbourne Show

    Richard brought me to the Melbourne Show today ah. I had so much fun and that Richard got me a new member of the doll family ah…ehhehe…he got me one big doll for every festival thingy we went to together. I liked that, coz each one is a memoriable present for the time we spent together. Sis, bro and Brian was there with us as well. I was so happy with my new doggy…I’ll post up photo later on. She is called Roxy ah~ I named it…heheheh….just…its just so great…but since its getting late…I’ll write all about it 2molo or later lor. I’m just going to add on to this post lah..not going to make a new entry for it~~ Just I had so much fun…Thx bb~~ thx so much for the good time. I love you.

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   Let’s c c what I did on that day. BB arrived my house around 10, a bit before 10am lah. Turn out that my bro just woke up and haven’t called Brian yet, sigh…Well, we were all set and got out of the house by 10:20pm. Arrived box hill and this time..haha..lots of car spaces lor, unlike the mid-autumn festival thingy, so hard to find a space. Well, didn’t waste much time in bh, since the train will be leaving in 4 mins. Got to Flinder Station lah, and the train to the show ground is at platform 8 & 9. Arrived at the show ground around 11 something lah….or is it 12 already? Can’t really remember the time, and when we got in….Bro and me got attracted to those the accessary shop, turn out that my bro even bought those necklace thingy there. Walked into the show bag part on the way, BB was planning to get me a show bag ga, but didn’t find anything I’m insterest in lor. But sis got herself a kitty from Bob the builder..hahaah..and a Girl Only show bag (now most of the stuff is mine…hahahaha..she just wanted the bag). Walked around, play around lor. Sis got caught in a game, have to throw the ball into the bucket without it bouncing out. Its really hard, my sis tried so many time, but not be able to succeed. She managed to get one in, but have to get two to win a prize. Oh well, better luck next time sis. I was searching around for the matching number game game…kakaka….that’s how we got all those big big toy toy lor~~ but they change it at the show ground…its different from what we played before, its still matching number, but it cost more and its harder to get lor. But still, BB got the determination to get me a toy, since..hahaah I asked for it =P…..anyway…heehhe…he got me a doll ah~~ its a big head dog…….super cute….anyway….Bro played a game and got me a blue colour bear as well ah…although its a small one…but still…its cute cute ga~~thx bro….Brian didn’t played much, just walked around with my bro and chatted a bit lor. During the lunch time, so hungry….went to search for food…but I kept on getting distract by other shops and stuff >.<….I had a chicken roll for lunch, BB had a hot dog, sis, bro and brian got subway lor~~ heheheh….oh…and water as well~~~ then walked around again….oh oh oh….I forgot to mention….bb turned out got me a Garfield show bag ah…..so cute as well…thx babe~~ gum…after lunch…bump around for a lil while longer…..Brian bought two necklace, I chose one of them~ kakak…and he ended up buying a big green looking monkey….hahah..so werid looking…gum……not nothing to see see lor….go home home lor. I had dinner with bro and Brian at the malaysian place..its pretty nice ga….and got nothing to do afterward, so went to Brian’s house lor…his place is not that far from mine. Turn out…..got nothing much to do at this house as well….went home around 8 something lor…..well…that’s pretty much my day day lor~~ hehehe I had a great time…thx bb……I just love to go to places that u brought me…..I had so much fun…….thx ah

好怪﹐真係好怪。

    今日心情平平無奇﹐無起無跌。同 Mike o既打賭今日開始﹐無得食零食兩個禮拜。唔知係唔係因為咁﹐我特別想食﹐但係無理由第一日就輸咁"收"家。所以連午餐都唔食﹐等食晚餐。都唔關打唔打賭事﹐我放假依幾日都無食午餐﹐都無胃口。飲 Orange juice 唔算 Junk food 啦﹐等陣去買返支﹐唔洗口淡淡無野飲。講返今日啦﹐應該係 12 點幾已經醒左架啦﹐但係就係唔想起身﹐係張床到 "典" o黎 "典" 去。搞到 1 點幾先落床﹐都感覺唔到 "今日又係好o既一日" 果o的。坐左o係電腦面前睇電影﹐睇左成個 afternoon﹐之後 Jacky 就黎俾野我﹐跟住就食飯囉。連食飯都唔開心﹐求奇食左碗飯就算囉。頭先﹐我特然發覺係依一年裡面我迷失左我自己。一直被妒嫉心牽著鼻子走﹐覺得以前有好多野都係多餘o既。就算我再唔開心﹐再發癲落去﹐咁又點 jie。佢會受影響咩? 唔會架嘛﹐我好白痴﹐到而架先領會到依個道理。我知道我心中o既怨恨重沒消散﹐但係咁又點jie﹐重有咩我可以做jie。我都覺得好煩﹐好累。如果一早我就可以表達出自己真正o既感受你話幾好呢? 唔洗收收埋埋﹐時狗就發下作咁。我真係覺得我要去睇心理醫生o既地步﹐成日都唔開心我諗都係一種病o黎架。有好多時﹐我真係唔知點解我會唔開心﹐凈係覺得個心沈左落去﹐咩都提唔起勁咁。好難過啊!覺得身邊好嘈好嘈﹐好想咩都停晒落黎靜一靜﹐俾我靜一靜。我所講o既唔係真實o既嘈﹐係心靈上得唔到一點o既平靜。我唔似其他人一樣咁堅強﹐我底消唔到挫折﹐衰左一次我就唔咁再試個o的人黎架。我知我好失敗﹐因為我害怕失敗。我唔知我重可以點﹐我咩都唔知道喇已經。我等緊﹐我等緊我會知道我想要咩o既一日。一定會黎。。。一定會。。。。

Another bc day~

    Today is the mid autumn festival, its unbelieveably BUSY!!! I thought the nite will be busy and the afternoon will be pretty much be quiet. HOW WRONG WAS I?? Its was like soooooooooo busy in the afternoon as well, so many take away all came at once with ppl eat in as well, sigh, so bad. Luckly Jennifer (lady boss) came out today and help…lucky lucky lucky….but I still didn’t get to rest at all. So many ppl came in to buy duck and roast pork, well, the roast pork is for 拜神. I get to have my lunch at 2 something, I usually have lunch at 1 something max, that prove how busy we were…I had 紫菜魚蛋湯河, it was a bit too salty for me, other than that, its quite alrite ga. Then start working again lor, when everyone left at around 3 something. I was planning to get some rest, to rest my feet a bit. But I remember that we had to do a big clean up today, so turn out that I went to wipe the edge of the wall, then wipe the window and such. 勞動性質工作係比較"用力"o的架啦﹐無得怨。 At night, things didn’t get any better. Ppl eat in got full and take away all came in at once AGAIN!!! Well, not at once, but like few mins of different will not make any difference to us!!! I got so cranky and upset half way through work, even Tommy 哥哥 can tell that I’m getting tired and upset. Kakaka….coz I showed him my 可憐 look~~ he was a great help to me~~ or else I’ll be like faint half way. 但係應該反醒下自己o既工作態度囉﹐一忙就開始發癲咁。 But can’t really blame me I shall say, I’ve been working three nite + 1 afternoon straight, not to mention that I had like two most frustrating week of uni before. Not enought rest at all!! Felt like crying so easily this two days, just want to cry cry cry cry~~ silly silly me~ Lucky tomolo don’t need to work, can get some real rest….no more uni for two weeks…but still got assignment and project though..got two due in when uni start again. Together….we sold ~20 duck…and a lot of 燒肉, and they made me want to eat it too >.< since they are all fresh made, smell so nice ga ga ga~~~ Anyway, we had a big clean up tonite. I was SUPPOSE to be the one scrubbing the floor, but turn out that I’m so useless at it and Tommy 哥哥 is being very thoughtful~~ he helped me to do and let me go clean the window instead~ so good good~~ hehehe…..that’s pretty much of my busy work thingy…..

    Now, for some good thing. I saw Arthur today!! He came in to buy 蔥油餅 ah~~ aaww…..so nice to have some time to catch up during the busy busy day~ felt so warm and nice…thx Arthur ….U remember that u still owe me a dinner ga~ let’s go for dinner some day day ah~~ find Kelly and Irene as well~~ kakaka Saw Stanley as well ah, he came in to buy 燒肉 just like others lor~~ 拜神啊嘛!! At nite, I miss Richard so so so much, so I decided to sms him when every one decided not to come any more , his reply made me feel so much better….thx babe~ He came and pick me off work too ah…well…he had been doing this for few months already actually~~ kakak…..he became my driver lor…but felt so bad sometimes…felt like 煩到佢咁…oh well…he just have to live with it then… heheheheh~~~ that’s pretty much of my day lor~~ just a busy working day…

ps…thx Alvin, I hope that I can get some rest too >.< .. really need that now..hehehe

ppss…Arthur…remember that dinner lah

pppsss…多謝 Tommy 哥哥 今晚o既幫忙﹐你救左我半條命。

ppppssss…That corn thingy for breakfast is real good babe~ let’s make it again some other time kk????

ppppssss…THX EVERYONE FOR CARING FOR ME!! THX SO SO MUCH!!