Happy Halloween every one

    Today is Halloween lor~ wich everyone, who is going trick or treatin will have fun and be safe. Acutally, those who decided to stay at home to be safe too, remember to have lollies around just in case some cute stranger just drop by. I never try trick or treating myself, though it would be a rather "kiddish" experience for me. Still, I don’t mind getting a chance to try =P….maybe….one year, one year I’ll go trick or treat. HAHAHAHAHA~~ Anyway, today is Monday already, next week got exam lu and yet I’m still not prepare for anything. How shyt can I get? Oh well….just got to try harder I guess, might get a nap of an hour and then study lu. Today is a good day, although for that big drama in the morning was not pleasent, but hey, things turn out fine after ward lor. Went to ICT with Rich to study a bit, although not much was done, but still had a good time. He drove me out to the city today ne, so sweet of him to do that. Thx Babe!!!!!! He did some of his work as well lor, then went back to doncaster maccas to have "breakfast" at 5 something. Great isn’t it? We both didn’t eat until 5 something, I’m sorry bb. Yeah….nothing much happen today, I’ll keep writing a bit later lah. Take care everyone, and good luck for all ya exams!!! You all can do it ah!!!!!! GOOD LUCK AND ADD OIL!!!!!!

Last day of Uni~~

    I can’t believe its the end of the year already and now its time for stress + panic. I’ve got Exams in 13 days, so quick, so soon. I can’t believe it….noooooo >.<….I don’t have enough time to study and yet, I don’t feel like study at ALL!!! What should I do? In a way, I felt sad, coz time really fly….I don’t want time to go past this quick~ I’m not ready for anything, yet, almost a year now, I still carry the burden with me. I said that I’ve let go already, well, I do…since there is no more hatred in me. But the images never left me, each day I still saw them in my mind, toturing my heart and soul. So far, not much ppl could really understand how I feel, and why do I feel that way. Most of you, actually, every one of you told me to cheer up and its in the past now, nothing more I could do, so don’t think about it, don’t have to care about it. I’m sorry to say, but that really turn me down. I know you all are trying to cheer up me and I’m really greatful for all ur kindness, I do feel happy to have friends like you all. Really appreciate what you guys did for me ga!!!! I’m really happy to have friends like you . Stay friends forever kk? And its not that I don’t wanna let go, its because it takes time to. I just need longer than everybody else that’s all. Nothing wrong with that rite?(Pls support me???) I’ve already tried my hardest not to hate. How much more do I have to give in before I’m past-free? Is there anyone I should blame for all this? Why do I feel that everything is so fake? Human are so fake!!!!!! Everyone is so unclean, not physical cleaness. I’m talking about internal, spiritual cleaness. So far, I haven’t met someone that pure yet. I, myself is not clean. I’m full of jealousy and sadness, but is it really my fault that I’ve jealous? I guess, sometime, things are better left unspoken. The more I type now, the more I’m getting effect by it. I’m going to stop typing now…..love you all and take care .

婦容 VS 夫容





    I just think its really good and yes~~ all guy should do what the rule said~~ from now on…男子四行中的夫容 exist!!!


Good Morning ppl~

    Hahhahaah….didn’t sleep for the whole nite, just sat infront of the comp and type + draw away….still not done…but very close to finish..which i’m happy about…going to carry on during uni as well i suppose~~my brain is a bit stuffy~~ can’t think..well…can still think…but just not fast……anyway….gonna get a shower and then keep going lor……try to get as much done as i can now…at least the class diagram….since the uni is not using the program I’m using now…which is kinda suck…oh well…..shower u~~ good morning ppl~~~ a bright new day…..have fun and take care~~~

When will this end?

    I’m sick of waiting and I’m sick of uni. I haven’t get enough sleep for this week AGAIN, so that make two weeks in a row that I only sleep for few hour each day….when will this toture end? Just, when can I wake up one day without caring wat’s going to happen that day? I wanna rest, I NEED rest….yet…I’m stuck with another tedious project which I must mention, killing alot of my brain cell!!!!!!!!! Sigh….feeling so screw…..wat should I do ppl? Exam is coming up and I still can’t find time to study….I’m like still in lecture 1 material can you believe? Its just so unbelievable man……sigh…..not going to waste time lah….going to work now………take care ppl….and good luck Jacky for ur coming exam~ you can do it…although I don’t think u read this anyway…but doesn’t matter….ehhehe……..and Take Care Jing Jing~ things might not  be as bad as you see it ne, just talk it through calmly then everything is going to be alrite. Haven’t see Kelly for a while now, good luck with ur exam as well~ take special care of ur self gal~ must catch up after exam~ MUST…..and Arthur~ i’m not going to work on sunday…so don’t go to ho mei to visit me this weekend lah~ u take care as well lah~ and Alvin~ don’t stress…I’ve got a feeling that u r a bit panicky…..who else~~ thx Leanor for helping me with my UML thingy in visio~ let’s get through this together and we’ll never going to see it again….AHAH….great hey? Anyway….wat else…nothing much lah….take care everyone and You’ll be alrite~ bai bai…..I’m getting my arse kick~ hahaha

More to come…

    The project 2 for Prolog have been submitted at 12 somthing am this morning and let’s hope everything will goes well with this one. Since Phillip and I did put a lot of effort into, although he is the one that did more work this time. We learned from our mistake and try again, I guess this is the meaning of life. We fall, we pick ourself up from there and move on. It might take a while for us to stand up again, but eventually we will. No point staying at the same spot forever right? I have this fear lately, I fear that I’m falling behind in my life, as in, its not getting any better. Actually, I am getting better in life, I’ve experience more and got more. But some how I felt that I’ve lost my spirit some time, no energy to do anything, lost the meaning in doing thing. I said more and more of the sentence "I can’t be bother.". Am I really this not can’t be bother? I know that when it comes to assignments and projects, I’ll get crazy from it, every single one of them. I put so much into it at the start, but when it is close to the end….I felt like I just wanna give up, as in just finish this damn thing and hand in. I’ve got nothing to do and I don’t feel bor at all. Am I crazy? Or I’m not the only one like that? I know that I’m a boring person and I like the way I am. Mum and Dad gave me what I am, so I should be greatful right? What more do I want? I know that I’m a perfectionist, I really am….it can come to a point that I felt life is too screw and not rite….I wanna start everything over again, just to get it right. I don’t know….sigh…..I don’t even know what I should do or what do I want any more……..Just got another assignment today man……I will try my best to do it …..but don’t think I’ll be smart enough to though…..I wish I’m smarter….just like Alvin~~ Alvin, if you read this….yes…I’m telling everybody that you are smart~~ and way more hard working than me…so don’t panic since I should be the one who is like a panic freak~~ YOU CAN DO IT…I have my faith in you~~~~ and you had help me ALOT during the year, with the subjects we got the same~ … You are like a dictionary…ahahah…can find definition to everything~~ I guess…I just have to try harder than~~ getting sleepy lah….didn’t sleep enough at all for the whole week….better get some sleep now…..bai ppl~~~ good luck to you all and love you all~~ TAKE CARE!!!

Spinning and Turning~

    Look at the clock and its 3am again, yep I’m still up. Its not like I don’t wanna sleep, its I’m get caught in the middle of a project again. Prolog Project gave me a scare today . I’ve check the Prolog Part1 mark and I’m not satisfy. Its so low that you won’t believe, I’ve got pretty upset about it too. Since its a group project and that mean my partner got the same mark too >.<. I’m sorry Phillip, I felt like I’ve pulled him down since he is GOOD at programming stuff. Feel so bad Feel so bad….I felt guilty, upset and lose hope + confident. I’m not born with much confident already and this sem just worn them out so bad, no matter how hard I try, how much I won’t give up…I still got a disappointing result. I don’t know what to do any more…I need sleep, I know I need more sleep, so lack of sleep this week. Been like sleeping for 4 hours each day? Or less? No sleep and no confident, what a great combination. I want to find a day to just sleep sleep sleep…hm….maybe I’ll just go to sleep while BB format my computer…kakka….evil evil….and yeah..my computer is a bit stuffy atm, got infected I think…so bad…but doesn’t matter….two more days then it will be new again~~ horray~!!! Sigh…..better get back to my project ….yeah…still gor Prolog part2 to do, better concentrate harder on it…don’t wanna let Phillip down again. I don’t have that much confident left, so pls don’t take it away from me? Anway…better get typing….laterz ppl…wish you all the best and take care….especially you Arthur, take better care of yourself since you r living by urself. You are too far for us to take care of you, so you better do a good job of taking care of urself~~ good luck with ur work too…..Same to you Kelly, don’t stress too much on things that u don’t even need to care. Show everybody what a good gal you are, smart and pretty~~ perfect lah!!! Your exams are soon, good luck to you lah~~ add oil and I’m sure u can do it lah..just try ur best and I’ll support ya~~ aahhh……need to do project lah…bai lah bai lah


    我一早就明白到依個道理﹐但係好可惜我做唔到。我唔係刻意同人比較﹐只係自己o既要求比較高左些小姐。我想人地做到o既野我都做到﹐人地會做o既野我都會﹐最斃就係自己死都唔會認輸o既性格。我唔係想話高出晒所有人﹐我凈係唔想俾人 left out 姐﹐我知我唔夠好﹐但係最起碼我想可以同佢地差唔多。讀書方面我唔聰明﹐但係我肯去讀﹐中學個陣係我至光輝o既時期。升到大學﹐我就徹底俾人打敗﹐好"無能為力" feel。見到個個都咁厲害我就有o的驚﹐唔單止厲害重好 hard working 添。我有o的心虛﹐上親 Tute 我都唔係太會o的問題。其他人個個都識答個陣我就好沮喪﹐就會係到 think 點解我咁鈍架﹐返屋企要讀書先得﹐但係無一次會做。時間過得好快﹐又就黎考試喇﹐咩都沒溫過你問我點死? 好頹廢囉﹐重係覺得每個sem 都過得好頹廢﹐讀得越黎越差。點解會咁呢? 我之前o既 determination 去晒邊? 讀書無晒鬥志好辛苦﹐好唔想讀落去﹐但係我唔得﹐點可以令到啊爸啊媽失望呢。每次到考試期間都會發晒癲咁讀﹐讀到連訓覺o既時間都無埋喇﹐最後羅出黎o既成積又唔係咁理想個陣真係好唔開心。今年係讀書個方面真係好唔開心﹐有太多野要顧要理﹐加上大學二年教o既野又真係難左好多。我轉數唔夠快﹐又唔夠人地聰明﹐想羅好成積都幾難。唔知啊唔知啊﹐凈係覺得好頹廢啊。好唔開心啊﹐個個都咁努力咁問緊習而我就係到對住部電腦發呆﹐浪費做好多時間。唔寫喇﹐唔開心啊……點解人地都可以咁努力溫習而我唔得架….發霉喇!!

Programming is Banana~~

    Prolog project is due this friday, so far so good I guess, since haha…Phillip is going to do most of the work…thx Phillip~ Everything is so repeatitive and long, looking at the screen make my eyes sore. The is that its really "word" sensitive, as in, if I don’t type in the correct word, I won’t be able to get the answer that I want. Guess what? I kept having typo while I typed, so I need to go back and forth just to check spelling ALL THE TIME!!!! Later on, need to add all those comment back on just for the sake of it. I know its good practice, but I’m just so not use to typing up comment as I go along. So much to do so much to do….UML project is out too, due in 2 weeks time. I’ve got lots of reading to do before I can do the project, sigh…so bad…so bad….Why doesn’t programming projects have to be a pain????? I don’t want to do it…..I want to rest …I’m so damn tired, yet, I still can’t go to sleep coz I need to do my project. I wish I can be smarter…then I can finish my things faster and better~~~I still haven’t shower yet and I’m really sleepy….what should I do ne??? Oh well…better keep going now…..