Please – Janice Wei Lan

One morning I woke up
I felt as if I suddenly
just couldn’t see
Little girl inside of me.

So I pretend to smile again
it’s not that easy
every time I see myself I just can’t breathe

On a rainy day you walk along my side
and brushed the raindrops from my eyes and then
you asked me if I’d be alright
Never thought I’d ever feel the sunlight shining through my wintry sky
Hold me tight baby hold me tight, won’t you dim the lights

LaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLa
LaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLa
I want to sing my love songs to you
Let me hold you
LaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLa
I can’t stop thinking about you
Please baby please tell me that you love me

I don’t wanna cry no more but am I brave enough?
To face the pain and fear he left behind for me
I’ve been deeply hurt before with all the wounds he gave me
It’s killing me
only if you see
Loving you the sound of burning cigarettes
Falling ashes on my lonely bed
I told you I can’t live without you
Let me love you
I won’t regret
For all the times we’ve been through

Please baby please tell me that you love me

LaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLa
LaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLa
I want to sing my love songs to you
Let me hold you
LaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLaLa
I can’t stop thinking about you
Please baby please tell me that you love me

Never thought that it would hurt me so deep

New word for tonight – Petty

So I’ve learnt a new word tonight – Petty ((of behavior) Characterized by an undue concern for trivial matters, esp. in a small-minded or spiteful way).

My heart bleed a little when you said that. I thought you would give me the support that I’ve been craving for but it’s ok. I’ve learnt it’s my own problem and I’ll get over it. Tomorrow will be a much happier day….

Self reflection….

It has been years since I was a teenager but why am I still acting like one? Secretly every year on my birthday I would think to myself, would I be better – in terms of thoughts and behaviours – this coming year because I’ve just putted another stroke on my age counter. Yet, I don’t think I’ve changed much at all. I’m still not good at controlling my emotions and everything simply feels the same. A recent event has got me thinking (hearing different perspectives from friends also help too). Why should I care about something that’s clearly not my problem? This is a question I’m asking myself now. Why am I wasting my valuable time being upset/frustrated at something that is nothing to me? I shouldn’t have taken someone’s problem to be my own. Ha! All I can say is I have plenty of room for improvements. Let’s take this slow….one step at a time.